CANT TELL

when a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running in her mind,
when a girl is arguing,
she is thinking deeply,
when a girl looks at you with eyes full questions,
she is wondering how long you will be around,
when girl answer "i'm fine" after a few seconds,
she is not fine at all,
when a girl stares at you,
she is wondering why you are lying,
when a girl lays on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever,
when a girl want to see you everyday,
she wants to be pampered,
when a girl says "i love you",
she means it,
when a girl says "i miss you",
no one in this world can miss you more than her

Nak JOG tapi..

aku takot g Jog sorang2.
kwan2 xdak kat sini.
pnah ada kjadian sorang auntie kena tolak n "thali" yg org india pakai tu diragut sbb peragut tu yg jgak berbangsa india sangka itu rantai emas.
tapi yg bestnya peragut tu patah balik n bagi balik kat auntie tu.
hmm..nak hidup sihat pun susah sebab ada manusia berbahaya diluar sana..

Kenapa dia begitu?

kenapa dia suka marah aku ON FB aku?
aku x gatai ngan sapa pown.
kenapa la time dya ada ngan aku baru mangkaq2 yang aku xpenah kenai dok bg msg kat aku.
mamat endon mana ntah dok wat cm kenai aku.
ish2...
kalo la dya taw aku dok wat blog ni aku nak dya taw..
aku xpenah GATAI ngan sapa pn.
biasa la kalo nak main2 text ja lam tu.
xpenah pn smpai personal n lebey2 cm exchange 6ber phone.
aiyow..wa cinta sama lu saja NORIZMAN ISMAIL.

FaGEMOK

dikala ini....aku ngah dengar lagu estrella-stay.....
teringak si dia.. NORIZMAN ISMAIL..
minx maaf kalo dah sakitkan perasaan dya...(owhh berjiwa jiwaan plok)
hehe..always LOVE NORIZMAN ISMAIL...

akuGEMOK 2

baru pas tambah LEMAK dlm tuboh aku.
haishh...da naik 2 kilo wooo~
aku GEMOK.Fa GEMOK.

akuGEMOK

yesza..sekarang semakin Gem dari sebelum ni..
haha..da nek 2 kilo kot..
waaawawa...

sekarang..disaat ini..aku nak Fillet O Fish yg Dabell...

nyum2...

at last..my new BABY..

BABY First: babyblog aku ni laa..
BABY Second: just delivered today. My own Nouvo S (12 MAY 2010)
yuuhuu...
A BIGG Thanks to Allah kerana memberikan rezeki untuk Mama aku dan membelikan aku seuah motor untuk aku. Thank u saangat2 kat Mama!! Luv u!
pasni bulan2 aku kena la wat saving untuk bayar bulanan baby aku ni.wuuhu..

--mula2 rasmi naik moto aku tu dengan hujan yang baru turun.nak sambut aku nek moto baru arr tu...maybe hujan rahmat.huhu..dah la tu kena bawak slow2...hmm..snggah umah tok aku..makan2 n balik....bila balik neighbour aku tnya sket hal bby aku ni..yang aku TAK SUKA BILA BELIAU BERTANYAKAN PLATE NO AKU!! CISSS>>>NAK TIKAM NOMBOTTT JAAA!!! mangkok hayon...

ILY MAMA~

walaupun baru berlalu sambutan Mother's Day kan..
tetap nak luahkan perasaan sayang yang teramat kat mama..
Azizah Binti Ahmad.
walaupun aku lambat post and xdak pic sambutan tu..
tapi dalam ingatan aku..insyallah aku ingat sampai bila2..
Mother's Day kali ni aku sambut ngan adik(Danial) and him(Rizman).
memang rasa relationship aku ngan family aku tmasuk dia dah semakin rapat.
Alhamdulillah.

Ucapan buat Mama (Puan Azizah Ahmad)
Adik nak ucapkan Terima Kasih yang tidak terhingga kat mama atas pengorbanan Mama kat adik and family kita. Mama insan terhebat dan tabah. Kuat menghadapi apa pun situasi.
Itu yang membuat adik kagum dengan mama.. U are my Roll model.
Mama dah jadi inspirasi kehidupan adik.
Mama banyak sabar. dan adik nak contohi Mama.
Mama sporting and best.
Banyak nasihat adik dalam kehidupan ni.
and the most BESTESTTT THINGG...U ALWAYS CLOSE TO ME WHEN I NEEDED U!!
Itu yang paling best. Semenjak Arwah Baba dah pergi tinggalkan kita Mama selalu ada untuk adik
walaupun adik dah pernah wat mama sedih dan sakit hati.
Adik nak minta ampun dan ucap terima kasih.
Ini ja yang termampu wat masa sekarang.

Kalau ada Award Mama aku arr paling layak.
huhu..

ok la..nak layan Twilight lagi.
huhu

Dear God

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
and all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
when hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

datang dan pergi dan ignore and come back again~

aku bukan boneka.
yang boleh dia perlaku sesuka mahu.
aku punya perasaan.
perasaan yang mudah tersentuh dan memaafkan.
tapi.
dia sering mengambil kesempatan.
kerana aku akan memaafkan.
tetapi..dia lupa yang aku tak mudah melupakan.

sampai bila aku harus bertahan.

personally from myheart..fa..

refridgeratorr..myfridge..

gawsh..semms like almost a month.
peti ais aku rosak sikit demi sikit.
yang atas over sejuk.
yg bawah xsejuk sangat.
and bnyak barang kena buang sebab da berbau.
huwawawaa..
aku la yg responsible nak wat clearance tu.
n harini kena wat clearance penoh.
sebab mama maybe nak beli fridge baru.
oww yeahh..
peti ais kat umah aku ni dah seusia dgn kakak aku da.
25 tahun.
da remaja.
haha.patot la meragam.
so arini aku pnya aktiviti adalah membersihkan fridge itu.
-------great(akan membusukkan diri aku la satg)------------

laaaaaaalalalaaaaaaaaaaa~

im a grow UPP girll now~

i think i have been a grown up girl now.
umm..not that i want to proud or being like crack or what.
i just like know that my mind and all that i think kind of mature.
like "mature" like big girl thinking.
lalalaaa..

sort of.kind of..
haha..maybe..---thoughtful---

still thinking of new thing that i think that happen in me.
inside me.deep me.lalalalaaaa me.
hehe ^,^V peace~

lalalaaaa

Dear him..my dear..

i wish u could know what i am facing in every second.
the only reason is coz of u my dear.
u kept make me feel guilty and angry.
why does it happened again and again.
why dont u try to take bit of time to know me better.
deep.look into my eyes.my soul.
i want the best for myself and for you.
why did u let me always feel awful.
im the only who love and care about u.
but you dont ever care about me even i know u love me.
am scared.am guilt.am tired.am so feel awkward.
all coz what u have done to me my dear.
even i have forgiven u for all time but..
it does not mean that i've forgotten all u have done my dear..
u make me feel sick slowly every time we fighting.
cant u see that im dying to suck all this?
im suffering coz of u.
i am still standing and pretending to be happy and calm to public.
it is because not to tell about what really happened.
there is a regret inside me.deep.
but when i remember all the good part in our story.
the smile.the laugh.the eyes.the touch.the cry.the tears.all about you my dear.
it gave me strength and hopefull that all this painful for me will be not forever.

i will love u for the rest of my life.
because u are a kind of person that make my life begin like what i am now.
even..u gave me cheer n pain..it doesnt matter as long i can stand for it.

but dear..
i will leave u if..
there is hopeless..

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i am still waiting for u to make me feel "real" to live with u..
still waiting and always giving time for u to improve yourself..
to make me truly feel protected.loved.cared.and matured.

dedicated to my dear NORIZMAN BIN ISMAIL....

bicara tentang perasaan...

memang aku akui aku terlalu sayangi dia.
tapi sikap itu tidak aku senangi.
kenapa susah bagi dia untuk lakukan kemahuan aku.
hanya satu "PERHATIAN"..
ya..perhatian dari dia.
bila dia beri perhatian sekaligus akan wujud chemistry of love.
akan wujud kasih sayang yang tak dapat diungkapkan dengan kata kata.
walau berjauhan aku akan dapat merasa kasih sayang dan belaian jiwa dari org yang aku sayang.
walau sesibuk mana pun..
aku amat mengharap perhatian dari dia.
walau hanya satu SMS da cukup untuk aku rasa semangat.
cukup untuk membuktikan yang dia ambil berat akan aku.
tapi ini hanya impian aku.
walau aku dah luahkan segala..walau dengan air mata..
dia tetap sama.
dengan alasan sibuk bekerja.
tapi dari sudut pandangan aku itu hanya alasan.
bila aku mula menjauhkan diri baru dia akan dekat dengan aku.
bila aku dah ok dia akan kembali seperti asal.
tidak memberi perhatian.

hanya kawan kawan di Facebook jadi teman aku.
segala masalah dan dilema aku lepaskan dalam FB.
n kawan kawan yang akan berkongsi.
walaupun sebenarnya aku nak berkongsi dengan dia.

aku tak faham kenapa..
kalau dia tak boleh beri perhatian kat aku lepaskan aku.
kenapa nak wat aku cmni.
aku tak perlu dia kalau dia hanya wujud tanpa memberikan aku perhatian dan kasih sayang.

dia---> NORIZMAN BIN ISMAIL

in LOVE again and again!!!

sekarang fenomena baru terjadi~
kali ni..its all about TWILIGHT!!!
wahaha...im in LOVE!!

aku akan tgok cita twilight walopon sekejap..
i LOVE EDWARD CULLEN AND JACOB!!
waahahaha...i like..!!brrr~~hahaha

gila bayang oww..
ngah tggu TWILIGHT ECLIPSE plok~

owwhh EDWARD N JACOB~

MY DECISION: DEGREE

setelah aku fikir2kan sepanjang hari ni..
aku fikir macam2..
keja atau sambung belajar..
tadi ada company dari GAMUDA or keretapi berkembar tu call..
tapi position kerani..n kontrak setahun or dua..
mama macam suka aku keja..
tapi aku rasa aku belom bersedia..
masa aku praktikal pn macam2 peel aku dah cipta..
ponteng ja keja aku..
huhu..
so i've think i rather study than working..
hmmm~still thinking actually~what is better for me~